Well, to all of those that I didn't text today... I will give you the information that I know... and you can be just as knowledgable as me at this point. (Which doesn't give you much knowledge..)
Here is what I do know: I know that when I went to my General Surgeon today that performed my surgery I was expecting to here this.." Well, the lump was obviously benign because you have no history of breast cancer and you are young and I had even told your husband after the surgery that there is nothing to worry about.. it all looked great! Go home and have a wonderful life! Oh, and pick up a chocolate shake on the way home, it will contain no calories today!"
But here is what the General Surgeon really said, after I got there 45 minutes late because Will decided to throw up on the way in: "There really isn't any way that you should have cancer because you don't have a family history of cancer and you are only 31-years-old and the first biopsy we did said that it was benign..... But.... you have cancer!" (This is when I started to sweat profusely out of every pore in my body).
Me: "What was that... I think my three-year-old was talking at the same time as you?"
Dr.: "You have cancer"
Me: "Oh...that is kinda what I thought you said"
Dr.: We removed the lump and found out that you have cancer and now let me go over your options with you.... you have to see an oncologist, you need to have a double mastectomy and maybe your ovaries out, just to be safe. We will not know if you will need chemotherapy yet, until we take a look at your lymphnodes during surgery. Oh, and you could get a lumpectomy, but I wouldn't advise that because then you can get recurring cancer the rest of your life. Oh, and can we go over your family history right now because I need to know if you have cancer in there somewhere... oh, and you need genetic testing...oh and let me go get the plastic surgeon on the phone so we can schedule your surgery....reconstruction can be done at the same time....blah, blah, blah
Will: "I have a quarter, I want to go to the store...... Now!!!!!!!"
Me: "Will, the doctor is talking to me, can't you tell he is a doctor?
Will: "No... I want to go to the store!"
Me: "But he has a white coat."
Dr.: "um.... yeah... I have a white coat...
Nurse: In the corner cowering cause I don't think she likes to be in the room when people get this news. Occasionally, she would let out a strange giggle sound. (Maybe she was giggling at me because I was getting all this news while wearing a paper shirt)
Dr. leaves room.......stays gone a long time................comes back in twice, only to quickly leave again............... then comes back and sits down
Dr. "Okay, the thing is... I think you need to go to the Mayo Clinic or a cancer place or something... I have never really.....ummmm had a patient with breast cancer this young before....but if you have any questions, you can call me. k bye.....oh, and here is a book about breast cancer and a ladies number that you can call and you can pay her to calm you down.....uh..bubye!
So, now you went to my whole appointment... wasn't it fun???? As I left the patient room, Cassidy and Lund were waiting right outside the door for me... They assaulted me with "Mom, what were you doing in there for so long? Mom, our pediatrician appointment started 10 minutes ago!!!" The end
Fun story, huh??? Well, obviously my story doesn't end here... I just have a "new" road to follow in my not so distant future. I will be meeting with a breast cancer specialist on Wednesday morning at 8:30am at Banner Cancer Wing or something. I am sure I will get a whole lot more information from her. That will be good!
I just wanted to thank all of you for all your prayers and love.... it makes me want to cry when I think of how many people in my life touch me each day with their kindness! It is just overwhelming (in a good, humbling way)!