Monday, November 2, 2009

A New Road in My Life....

Well, to all of those that I didn't text today... I will give you the information that I know... and you can be just as knowledgable as me at this point. (Which doesn't give you much knowledge..)
Here is what I do know: I know that when I went to my General Surgeon today that performed my surgery I was expecting to here this.." Well, the lump was obviously benign because you have no history of breast cancer and you are young and I had even told your husband after the surgery that there is nothing to worry about.. it all looked great! Go home and have a wonderful life! Oh, and pick up a chocolate shake on the way home, it will contain no calories today!"
But here is what the General Surgeon really said, after I got there 45 minutes late because Will decided to throw up on the way in: "There really isn't any way that you should have cancer because you don't have a family history of cancer and you are only 31-years-old and the first biopsy we did said that it was benign..... But.... you have cancer!" (This is when I started to sweat profusely out of every pore in my body).
Me: "What was that... I think my three-year-old was talking at the same time as you?"
Dr.: "You have cancer"
Me: "Oh...that is kinda what I thought you said"
Dr.: We removed the lump and found out that you have cancer and now let me go over your options with you.... you have to see an oncologist, you need to have a double mastectomy and maybe your ovaries out, just to be safe. We will not know if you will need chemotherapy yet, until we take a look at your lymphnodes during surgery. Oh, and you could get a lumpectomy, but I wouldn't advise that because then you can get recurring cancer the rest of your life. Oh, and can we go over your family history right now because I need to know if you have cancer in there somewhere... oh, and you need genetic testing...oh and let me go get the plastic surgeon on the phone so we can schedule your surgery....reconstruction can be done at the same time....blah, blah, blah
Will: "I have a quarter, I want to go to the store...... Now!!!!!!!"
Me: "Will, the doctor is talking to me, can't you tell he is a doctor?
Will: "No... I want to go to the store!"
Me: "But he has a white coat."
Dr.: "um.... yeah... I have a white coat...
Nurse: In the corner cowering cause I don't think she likes to be in the room when people get this news. Occasionally, she would let out a strange giggle sound. (Maybe she was giggling at me because I was getting all this news while wearing a paper shirt)
Dr. leaves room.......stays gone a long time................comes back in twice, only to quickly leave again............... then comes back and sits down
Dr. "Okay, the thing is... I think you need to go to the Mayo Clinic or a cancer place or something... I have never really.....ummmm had a patient with breast cancer this young before....but if you have any questions, you can call me. k bye.....oh, and here is a book about breast cancer and a ladies number that you can call and you can pay her to calm you down.....uh..bubye!

So, now you went to my whole appointment... wasn't it fun???? As I left the patient room, Cassidy and Lund were waiting right outside the door for me... They assaulted me with "Mom, what were you doing in there for so long? Mom, our pediatrician appointment started 10 minutes ago!!!" The end

Fun story, huh??? Well, obviously my story doesn't end here... I just have a "new" road to follow in my not so distant future. I will be meeting with a breast cancer specialist on Wednesday morning at 8:30am at Banner Cancer Wing or something. I am sure I will get a whole lot more information from her. That will be good!

I just wanted to thank all of you for all your prayers and love.... it makes me want to cry when I think of how many people in my life touch me each day with their kindness! It is just overwhelming (in a good, humbling way)!

17 comments:

Kim Betts said...
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Kim Betts said...

Oh Christa....I'm so sorry to hear this bad news. I just cried while I read your post. Please let me know if there is anything I can do. I know I don't live close but if you need anything please call me. How did Morgan take the news? was he with you? did you tell the kids? My heart is with you and your family. And you are going to be in my prayers for sure. What a day! We love ya Christa! Hang in there...We are all here for you. NO MATTER WHAT!!!

T. Sipes said...

I am sooooo sorry to hear what you and your family are going through right now. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. If you need anything let me know (I will find out eventually). We love you guys!!

Happy said...

Christa; Mark and I will keep you in our prayers and I have already contacted the temple to place you and your families names on the prayer roll. We do not live close, but if there is anything that you need, please let us know.
We miss ALL of you in Bagdad and know that our hearts are with you and your family and the rest of the Bagdad'ins.

Q and M

Rogers Family said...

Oh my goodness Christa! I'm so sorry that you are going through this. You are such an amazing and strong woman and I know that you will be able to get through this. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

nickndest said...

What a day! Just remember that I have no life, and will be willing to be your live in house keeper. My only advise is to go for Dolly Parton size afterwards. I love ya and am praying for ya.

Jipsie said...

You are a STRONG lady and I know you can get through this. You have great family and great friends. If you need a break or just to cry give me a call.

The Davenports said...

Christa, you are one of the strongest people I know and its unfair to me that you should have to go through this. It breaks my heart because you deserve nothing but bliss! I'm so sorry and I'm praying my guts out for you. :)

annebabe said...

If this comment is full of typos its is because I'm typing through the tears. I'm so sorry Christa!! My favorite scripture is D&C 121:9 and that is the message I want to share with you right now. Much love to you, Morgan and the kidlets.

Erin said...

Wow. I just don't even know what to say. Will you email me? eguymonrdh@yahoo.com
I hope you're holding up ok... your post was witty as usual, but I hope you're REALLY doing okay.

Dana and Tiff said...

Christa...just wanted to tell you, once again, that I am here for you if you need anything, I mean it. I love ya girl!!

Shumaker said...

Christa, i am so sorry to hear that. I am sure you are probably sick of hearing that by now though. I will keep you in my prayers.

Erin said...

GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR APPOINTMENT TODAY...

Alexis said...

Christa--I just read this post to Brook over the phone and I just about hung up to call you, but I think there are probably a lot of people who are more involved in your life than a cousin-in-law who you'd care to hear from right now...but we are praying for you!! (and your family!!)

Anonymous said...

Christa, you just amaze me and I'm so sorry that you and your family are going through this. I am praying my heart out for you and will do anything to help.
Love, Penny

Grama Karen and Papa Lund said...

Christa and Morgan and all the kids and turtle.
We are anxious and able to be there in person for your needs. We are already planning on being there before the 17th so we can be in Bagdad with your kids and animals while you are in Mesa. Our eternal prayers are said and will continue to be sent Heavenward on you and your families behalf. This is a good time to be retired and free. Love to you
Lund and Karen // mom and Dad Johnson

Jeremy and Ruth said...

i say you and eat as many milk shakes and you want and they wont have any calories!! you deserve it!