1:00 am update: I want to go to bed. My brain is tired, and I have had a really, really long day and yet I sit here typing. Steriods are still running amuck throughout my body so sleep seems to elude me. Instead, I sit here on the couch watching TV and eating quite frequently, becuase steroids make you VERY hungry!!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
On the 'roids again!
Here I am getting out of the chair for the last time!! I wasn't feeling too great at this point.
And here is the bell I have waited so long to ring!
And here I go....... Oh, and the nice blue compression sleeve I have to wear is for my lymphadema because they removed all my lymphnodes from my left arm. I told Will I have to wear it because I am a superhero, and do you know what??? He believed me!!!
Today was my very, very last chemo session!!! When I finished I got to ring a tiny copper bell and they did a standing ovation for me and I even got a certificate for clompleting the poision section of my life!
As we drove home I started to cry... I am not quite sure why I started to cry, I actually don't cry very often. It was a mixture of happiness and a bit of sadness mixed it... this is all I have known for the last six months of my life! I have just been constantly fighting for my life, to live longer, to get through the next chemo session and then the next. To have people come into my house and serve me lovingly. This is all I have known for a long while. And now, it is over....for now! I still have an appointment with my oncologist in three weeks, and there will be PET scans to make sure the chemo did it's job. And then there will be radiation and a slow return to my normal health and well being. But, really, it is over!! And I am very, very happy it is!!! I have learned sooooo much about unconditional love through Morgan and many close family members and friends! I think the Lord wants us to always love each other like this, even when there isn't a death sentence on the line. I think I need to try that more often! I truly, truly, truly love you all!!