Cancer News.... Not wonderful today folks.. be pre-warned!

Hello all... I wasn't up to posting yesterday because I was out of it mentally after my doctor's appointment and shocking news. You'd think by this point, nothing that comes out of the mouth of my doctors would surpize me, but alas, I was startled once again yesterday. I feel very blessed that Morgan was able to get time off of work to be there with me during my appointment!
Alright, here is the news.... They have upgrated by cancer to stage 4 breast cancer! What does that mean? Well, that means that my cancer began as breast cancer, but now has metastisized to my right lung and lymphnodes deep in my chest. It will always be called "breast cancer" even though they will be treating different areas of my body. What next? Well, it looks like the next step is to have a small surgery where they make a slit in my throat and go down my throat to try to reach the enlarged lymphnodes. They are doing this proceedure, just in case (5-10%) chance that they have misdiagnosed it, and it is not more cancer. But, they are pretty certain it is. They took my blood last week and did some "cancer tests" on it and my cancer markers were elevated telling them that I still have cancer in my body. So, this basically means that even though I went through 6 months of chemotherapy and 2 months of radiation, the cancer was still able to live through it, although it may have stunted it's growth a bit.
How will they treat me? They will start me on a "new" therapy plan that will probably include a new chemotherapy regimen and other possibilities as well.
Did I cover everything medically?? I think so. Basically, it means that I will never "beat" cancer, the best I can do is be in "remission" for however long (hopefully about 60 years!)
I feel like everything is a bit out of my control, and we are back to the "waiting game" again. Waiting to see what the biopsy says. Waiting for a new chemotherapy schedule? Waiting patiently while my computer seems to underline EVERYTHING! ARRRRRGGGGG!!!

Oh, and to make the day really out of our control..... The sellers think we are "stalling " for some reason on the close of our house, so they got mad at us and relisted the house and told us that if everything is not finished by next Friday, then they are pulling out.......... I wish they could see how much we are not "stalling"!!! We would LOVE nothing more than to already be in our house, but for some reason Bank of America is processing the last bit of this REALLY slow!!! I am trying to learn patience or anger control or some other wonderful virtue... so I need to just take a deep breath and let whatever happens, happen!!

Enough Debbie Downer stuff... The kids had school pictures this week and I tried to snap a few pictures of them before they left. They were NOT happy and here are the results.... I thought it was hillariouis!

I got a few smiles out of Will, but he was sooooo WIGGLY!!

See how happy he was to get dressed up for school pictures!!

.... Love the "mug shot". he was NOT happy with being photographed! He was also very upset about living in Phoenix this day... wanted to go "home" to Bagdad!

.......Much better, you just have to get him to laugh a bit!

Sarah has a hard time being grumpy... she is just too smiley!! Even when she tries to be grumpy, she has a bit of a smile on her face!

Cassidy was also exceedigly "not excited"!!!!

I hope the Lifetouch people had better luck than I did!!! he he he