Ode to Randomness...

As I sit here consumed with nausea from my chemo treatment yesterday, I thought I would take a few minutes to post about random things...
The first, and most important random thing is that we found out yesterday that my cancer is completely random, not hereditary. This is great news in so many different ways. This means that my sisters and mother and daughters will not need to be tested. This means that my ovaries can stay put. This means that Cassidy is releived that I didn't increase her chances of getting cancer by 50% (the statistic is entirely her quote, I am not sure when she conducted the study). It makes me very happy to get this news. It also leaves me with a lot of questions...like for instance "how did I get cancer?" The genetic counselor asked me right before she sent in my genetic test, "Do you have any clue why you have cancer?" I replied that maybe one month, deep in baseball season, I ate too many hot dogs in one month. Or maybe it is because I occasionaly drink out of plastic water bottles... or maybe my cell phone did it to me....or maybe.... the list could go on and on and on, but the bottom line is... No one really knows! That is what I thought, at least, until I re-read my patriarcal blessing from a loving Heavenly Father who knows me better than anyone else. I recieved this blessing when I was 14-years-old and it has been a great guide in my life. I will now quote from that blessing...." You have a very special opportunity in life to have a full and abundant life, Christa, so be always aware that even though there will be times when challenges come to you, remember somtimes the greatest blessings come in the form of challenges. When you have sickness or disappointments it will be an opportunity for you to become closer to the Lord. You can expect these things in your life but they will not remain a part of your life for you can quickly overcome them if you will stay close to the Lord, be humble, and prayerful." So, I have been told that this will just be a short season in my life, and I also have things that I need to do as well... be humble and prayerful. Humble is an easy emotion to reach when dealing with cancer because you lose your hair, pride, you name it... so being humble isn't hard. You just have to be humble the right way. that means that anger and frustration can't have a place in my heart.... there just isn't room for it in my heart. I also have to realize that this sickness can be a blessing in my life, if I let it! So let it I will!!!
So there is some randomness for ya!!! I have chemo brain today and it won't stay on track, so I think that will be enough for now! But truly, I love you all!! (I especially love Bonnie, my sister-in-law right now who is at this very moment, bathing my poopy 4-year-old....he he. Lucky her! She is here this week from Boise and what a blessing she is in my life, as you all are! )